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Women are so god damn flaky it pisses me off to no extent. I had gone out with Crystal like 4 times and we had sex like I dunno how many times and she said she really cared about me a lot and blah blah blah then all of a sudden she just stops answering my online messages. I keep messaging her and finally I have to go to where she works and confront her and I still don't get a straight answer from her. I don't know if she met someone new or just got bored of me. It is very confusing and now I am fucking hella pissed off at all women. Women are nothing but a fucking problem. I canceled my membership to the online dating site after this event and I have just been moping around angry for the last two months. I don't think men and women were designed to be together. That or maybe I just have really bad luck when it comes to meeting women.

My friends are trying to convince me that I just have really bad luck. I don't believe them but I promised them I would give this online dating thing one more try before I totally give up on the female race. So sigh here I am, posting on my blog so they can all see. Sorry it has been so long since my last blog entry but I have been very depressed like I said. It is amazing how we as human beings can go from being in a shitty mood overall to such a great mood after we meet someone to quickly and instantly back to being depressed and lonely. I know that I am a very emotional person and I am not sure if I will ever be happy. I either have really bad luck, or I am just destined to be alone. I don't really believe in destiny or any of that other crap so perhaps this is just all karma coming back to bite me in the ass for all the bad shit I did when I was a kid.

Anyways, I am starting fresh on the online dating site. I signed up an hour ago and I have been working on my profile but I am not sure what to say. I can't be totally honest about how I have lost faith in females otherwise girls will be like this guy is hella jaded and useless and they will not respond. The thing is, I am so mad that I can't figure out what the fuck to say. I think I am just going to go in and look at some other guys profiles and then just copy theirs or something. Once I do that, then I am going to draft up a generic message and then send that message to all the girls that I think look hot enough to fuck. Yeah I know I sound like a total douche bag right now, but hey maybe that is exactly what I am. I have been told I have a shitty personality many times in my life and I certainly haven't accomplished anything useful since I have been on this planet. Anyways I will update this blog again soon once I do all this shit and I am talking to some girls again. I hope my mood changes.

2010 is going to be an awesome year. I am starting fresh with everything in my life. I decided to start exercising big time and also start doing yoga. I haven't actually started yet but I am drawing up plans and I joined a gym. I want to shed some fat and gain some muscle mass so I have been reading these bodybuilding forums and getting together a good workout regimen and also a good diet to follow. The amount of protein I am supposed to be eating is quite high and I am not sure if I can stick to it, but at minimum I should be able to at least lose some weight and get a little more ripped.

None of the girls I met online during 2009 really interest me that much anymore. They are all yesterday's news. I want to focus on 2010 and on meeting the kind of girls that I fantasize about. You know what I am talking about don't you? Most guys end up hooking up and meeting girls that are nothing like the kind of girls they fantasize about when they are alone. So that is what I am going to do.

I am really attracted to girls that look like models. Really lean and tall and thin and classy looking. I am not very big ont he trashy, slutty, skanky type of girl. Lots of my friends go apeshit when they see a slutty looking girl but for me it does nothing. It is the same thing when I get dragged to a strip joint. I get bored and I never get an erection and my friends are going nuts and virtually jizzing in their pants sigh. I don't know what is wrong with them, or maybe it is something that is wrong with me but for me strippers are just a big turn off cuz they are so slutty and skanky and there is nothing left for the imagination. I prefer clothed hot classy females. But anyways...

So I have gone through the online dating site that I joined and looked specifically for women that totally meet my weird ass list of criteria. So far I have found 5 girls and I have messaged all of them. I did this last night so I don't have any messages back yet. I think that most of them are probably at work right now and I know most girls won't be logging into the dating site from work so it's all good. I am looking forward to updating you guys once I hear from them

My life has never been better... people get asked the question all the time "how are you" or "how are you doing" and most people give some bs response... but I am TRULY happy... one year ago at the age of 31, I left my long term relationship and have been enjoying the single life ever since. I manage a small Greek restaurant and I truly love my job. I meet a lot of girls at my job and I have a lot of fun dating them all. Being the type of person who can't get enough, I decided to try internet dating a month ago and things have been going well. I decided to make a blog and write about my various dates, where we went, etc. I know it's kind of lame, but I don't do much else other than eat, sleep, work, and go on dates. I don't know if I just want to boast, or if I want to help people... all I know is I feel like expressing myself and letting other people experience what I experience.