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Let me tell you about a new girl I met and went out with. She is a German girl named Alina and she is also 31 which is cool because she is the first girl I have gone out with in a while that is the exact same age as me. It's weird how when you are younger you are always going out with girls your own age but it seems like once you hit about 26 you start to throw the age card out of the window and it seems like you are never dating someone your own age anymore. She works for a printing company as the admin assistant for them. She is very very nice and very very polite, she is your typical office worker who aims to please everyone with very little attitude. She doesn't have much of an accent for a German girl because she said she moved to USA when she was 10 years old. She looked kind of like Heidi Klum but with slightly darker hair and not as sharp features... a bit more soft which was cool. She told me that she had been broken up with her fiancee for 4 months now and hadn't really been out with anyone since he cheated on her and left her 2 weeks before they were to be married. She said it really messed her up but she refused to become a sad tale and vowed to get back out there and try and meet someone new.

After hearing this I was really taken aback after hearing this and it made me think a bit about my own relationship and how I left and what kind of wreckage I might have left behind. The thing is though, I know that I did the best thing for both of us. I know that I am happier now and I have to believe that she is happier now as well, and even if she isn't happy, she will eventually be happy because there was no way I was going to make her happy in the long run. I felt sorry for this girl but at the same time I was cautious about moving forward with her because of she had been through. I wasn't sure I wanted a girl with such deep emotional scars because I really don't have any plans of getting into a long term relationship. I mean on my profile page online for dating it does say I am looking for a relationship but that's because you don't get any replies when you put you are just single and not looking for a relationship. So I have been telling myself that I will pursue each girl as if it could be a potential relationship and if I am not feeling it then I will just dump her.

Oh yeah, I took her to this restaurant called Zula Restaurant. This is where we talked about all of this stuff. This was on Sunday evening. The rest of dinner was pretty bland because now I felt like I was walking on eggshells and I knew I wasn't going to be getting any pussy and that I would have to now use reverse psychology on her and start to be the complete opposite of desperate with her. I would have to be a bit of a dick and make her come to me. After dinner I took her home and told her that I assume she has to get up early in the morning for work. Unlike myself because I work from 4 until midnight cuz that is the hours of our restaurant. She was like oh... ok... almost as if she wanted to maybe go do something else with me before the night was over but I think half of her is super conservative and said no just go home because you need your sleep anyways. I didn't even attempt to kiss her. I just sat there in the drivers seat and said I had a "nice time" and that's it. She said I had a nice time too... and then awkwardly reached out to give me a kiss and I turned my cheek and she kissed it. Then she left and I rolled home. I know you might think I am crazy for trying this approach but it is something that requires patience. You will see.